my arms will keep me warm on cold and lonely nights

i know i did some things,
but that's the old me

locked up in a chamber of discomfort,
locked into the mess once created by humor,
the overreaction to many rumors
killed a soul of smiles,
locking the indispensable sunshine in a box,
suffocating the smiles,
chocking the spirit.
each small part
smothered,
shoved away,
trying to materialize,
coming out as tears.
tears of sadness,
tears of fear,
tears of hurt,
tears of mistakes,
mistakes made,
mistakes made and remade,
with pen, not pencil,
written in forever without an eraser.

working it out, working it out, your so damn hard.

i am running out of words to say to you,
wondering why i'm wasting my time

Twelfth night started yesterday.
apparently we have 3 hour rehersals on wednesdays.
sorry but we only have six weeks,
we don't have our parts yet,
and we have 3 hour rehersals on wednesdays.
gabby was right,
i am sick of it already.

My table was the last table to leave,
and i don't think thats a good thing?
marco wrote on my wallet.
my one thats tokidoki.
i got pretty mad.
so i tried to get it off,
and i faded out parts of it,
but i couldn't get it off.
so i'm trying oxi clean when i can.

I spent all of my money buying dinner, pj day, and lunch.
so now i have to walk the dogs in the morning or no coffee.
i'd make it myself here,
but we have no milk so it would taste really bad.

I got my script after we got all of the cuts,
so i'm going to ask katie mccourt if she has them.

not quite ready [to let go]

so tired .

walked the dog for what felt like forever .

centuries to enternities .

seconds to minutues .

years to decades .

i went to the mall with lizzie ,[ yes . ohyes . yes . ]

and saw issac.![:

and bought a green shirt for st. (catholic) lepers day ;

(tomorrow );;

today was class color day [? )

so we shone like sunshine ..

in a bleary .. cold .. ugly .. building . [ofevil.!(hearitrawr!)]

i had to rewear what a wore friday (laundered)

so i felt like a repeat .

a really zebra-stripey repeat.

got a headband from frenche :shes not getting it back ,,

the shirt had a _ dinosaur on it .

its perrty cute (:

wednesday awaits .

doesn't sound like fun .

but i hope it ends up that way.

_the summer is a bummer if you can't leave_

you make me happy .

have you ever listened to a song,
when the first time you heard it,
the first three bars make your heart scream?
when you don't know why,
and the songs read all your dreams?
like a book,
left on the table,
or a diary,
open on a counter,
like a pitcture,
left up on a screen?
this kind of song knows me,
sees me,
feels me.