mimi still loves rodger but is rodger really jelous? or afraid that mimi's weak?

mimi did look pale.

mimi's gotten thin mimi's running out of time,

and rodger's running out the door.

i quit. dying in america at the end of the millennium.

you're what you own.

that was a nice talk. too bad nice isn't honest enough to solve the worlds problems.

Maggie went and talked to me after Spanish and was like,

"Do you want to come and talk about the 'thing' at lunch?"

and I was like,

"I don't know." I didn't want to watch anyone crying.

I hate watching people cry.

It makes me sad.

And worried.

It wasn't too bad.

It was just really awkward.

I don't mind awkward.

Just I was a bit annoyed.

Maggie doesn't want anyone saying anything mean.

She thinks we don't have to be mean, but the whole thing is mean.

It's all mean.

I think we all know that.

And there's no way to get done with this unless we end it meanly.

Everyone just has to be honest.

Maggie says anyone can be honest and not be mean.

I don't think that's true.

There are just some things that are mean.

The things that need to be said right now to end this are mean.

It's not going to get "resolved" until everyone comes to terms with the fact that people are mean. And that sometimes,

You have to be mean.

But it's not being mean. It's just honesty.

Being interpreted as being mean,

Because it is.

But it's nicer to be honest than to keep it inside.

Keeping things inside hurts you in the long run.

So people just need to talk.

It doesn't matter if there's going to be crying or yelling or brutal honesty.

Because what needs to be said is going to be said sometime.

No matter who it's too,

Or who hears,

It's all going to be said.

So why not just say it now?

It's not going to fix anything.

It's not going to change anything.

But this needs to be over.

So let's finish what we started.