SUMMER<3

summer is a bummer if you can't leave this pathetic excuse for a town<3

i'm gonna miss this pathetic excuse for a town,
i'm gonna miss taty and shelby and gabby and destinee & all my friends.
i wish this would never end<3>

BiTCH! BANG! BOOM!

and then all i could do was watch.
everything can change in a couple of minutes.
and all you can do is sit back and watch as everything flies.
first as my future changed permenantly with the removal of what was once a vital key to my survival.
second i watched it being altered again, this time more swiftly with more resistance,
but to no avail.
sometimes things just all fall down,
walls,
relationships,
stability.

my arms will keep me warm on cold and lonely nights

i know i did some things,
but that's the old me

locked up in a chamber of discomfort,
locked into the mess once created by humor,
the overreaction to many rumors
killed a soul of smiles,
locking the indispensable sunshine in a box,
suffocating the smiles,
chocking the spirit.
each small part
smothered,
shoved away,
trying to materialize,
coming out as tears.
tears of sadness,
tears of fear,
tears of hurt,
tears of mistakes,
mistakes made,
mistakes made and remade,
with pen, not pencil,
written in forever without an eraser.